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[Filter: Private]

I could have had that.

I could have been happy.

I just don't understand. I tried so hard. I -- I really tried. I loved him. I loved him. I would have been happy being -- being anything for him. Even if he never ... Why can't I ever just --

Mom and Dad were -- they were happy. Before ... I could have been happy. I could have had something like that. I could have, if it had just -- Mom and Dad were happy. They loved each other. I don't know why it all went ... why it all happened how it did. I still don't understand.

Is it -- is it so hard for something good, for something wonderful like that, to last forever? I don't know why it can't just ... why it can't just last. Mom and Dad could still be here with Lenore and I, if it had just lasted. And ... and Reiz and I could have been happy. We could have been. I know he doesn't understand that, but -- does something always have to come along and ruin it?

It all could have been so ...

It could have been perfect. I know it could have.

[Filter: Annie]

I hope you're happy with yourself.